Coming Home...

Last night was the 'Kaiser Sounds' launch party, the sound studio downstairs from Glassworks who rent space off us. They have been opened for 6 months now but this was their launch. They turned the entire downstairs into a Moroccan themed boudoir with added barbeques, bouncy castle, DJ, full bar and lounge areas. They did a pretty good job of it as well. About 150 people turned up, but by 11.00pm it was pretty empty. I didn't really enjoy it, I don't do well in those corporate situations where small talk runs big. I suppose I just don't care about what these "Industry" people have to say. Its all a bit blah to me. In an effort to have my own party I got involved in some sweeties and from that point on had my own party in my head which was far better than anything going on in the real world.
Steve 1 - 0 Corporate shitsticks

So I'm going home for the first time in almost two months. I am genuinely excited to see my friends and my family. Its weird working abroad as you detach yourself from the daily goings on of your nearest and dearest. Where once I would hear what people do from day to day, I now hear/read compressed life reviews. I know I'm not drifting from people, but I know that this distance has allowed me to gain some focus on who and what is important to me.

My real reason for going home is to see my oldest friend get married on Monday. I've Known Spencer since I was about 7/8 years old and was entrusted by Mrs hall to look after him on his first day of school after his transfer from a Barking school. I must have done an OK job as almost 20 years down the line through some ups and downs and extended months of silence we are still in contact and I still worry about him like a brother. I am worried now, as I don't know if his getting married is for love or necessity. Spen has got pretty big, some would say portly these past few years and I get a feeling that he feels if he doesn't wed now he may never. I hope he is doing the right thing and that he is eventually happy with his family. For the record this is not something I'm writing doing as catharsis, its more to document my thoughts. I've said all of this to him as we have the kind of relationship like family where I can pretty much tell him exactly how I feel and it won't be taken in any other way than me looking out for him. His future wife is a bit of nutter but it takes two to tango and Spencer is definitely an eccentric so hopefully as Husband and wife they will gel.

It all makes me think that when I get married its gonna be 100% for love and not for the necessity of not being lonely. I'd rather be lonely than fake a relationship!!